As the title suggests, it was the day of the school fun day today.
I woke up listening to Jamie telling Alex a ghost story, well sort of ghost story, she was saying about how the two big soft toy cats we've got come alive at night time and go downstairs and eat all our food. Because Alex gets a bit scared of things like this, I asked him if he was getting scared and he replied " nope, because I like zombies" Jamie said " well I don't think you'd like one if you actually met a real one". No
After making 4 different lunches at the same time (I knew that time working in kitchens would pay off : / ) we set off down the road to the fun day.
As soon as we got there, we got in the queue for the jam jar raffle, Jamie said she didn't want to do it, but Alex did, and I noticed that Jamie was frantically chewing on a bracelet that she had brought with her, she seemed really nervous or something. when they'd got their jam jars (Jamie changed her mind in the end) we went over to where the bouncy castle was and Alex was well up for a good old bounce but Jamie didn't want to, in fact she said she didn't want to do anything - this was after she was really happy about going there in the first place...and then Alex didn't want to go on his own, so we just walked around, looking for the cake stall. we found somewhere in the shade to eat our cakes, then I saw that some of the mums were putting on a belly dancing show(actually, one of them was a dad!), which I wanted to go watch, but Jamie didn't want to....so then then neither did Alex(copycat) so it was just me and Amelia watching them. Jamie kept coming up to me shouting "when are we going to go?" And when I was listening to a girl singing, she stood there covering her ears saying "this is really annoying!"
Jamie did nothing but moan the whole time :( I don't understand. She always does this whenever we go to anything like this, this is why we never go to festivals, or to see any live music, which is really sad because I'd love to go to a festival :(
I am a bit concerned about Jamie at the moment, she thinks that she is so brilliant at everything, she's always saying "I'm really good at doing this" "look how good i am" or "I'm the best at this" and she's a really bad winner, and I've tried to explain to her quite a few times that other people get a bit annoyed if you keep saying things like that, but she says " I wasn't doing doing anything!" in complete denial that she's done anything wrong. She's really controlling (or ties to be). She wont try anything new because she's so scared of failing, and she makes out that she thinks almost everything is rubbish. She is really shy, to the point that she appears rude(refuses to say hello to a friend in passing), either that or she really doesn't care! I just can't work her out sometimes. Is this normal 7 year old girl behaviour??
As soon as we got away from the school, she seemed to go back to normal, I asked her why she didn't like it there. She said it was too noisy and there were too many people. I've been concentrating on Alex's problems all this time, but maybe I've overlooked something in Jamie. She's really smart and popular at school, but does that mean everything's ok?
I'm not jumping to any conclusions, but if Aspergers and sensory disorders are hereditary and theres a lot flying around, then maybe she does have a tendency towards something??
I'm sure when we're all home educating together, I'll get to know her more, and she'll get the school system out of her and she can be herself more. I really look forward to it :)